Just over a year ago I wrote a blog post about being diagnosed with depression, you can read it here. Well it is now another year and a bit further on and things and moved and I think they have progressed. 2 things happened that eventually came together at the doctors.
1 – A rather daft facebook game testing for autistic traits (that I scored a bit higher on that I was comfortable with), a bit more research just to put my mind led to a desire to have a discussion with my doctor about it.
2– One of the things the doc had asked me to do was to try and identify things that triggered ‘down times’. I had quite a list of things that caused frustration the combination of which can cause downs.
Just before the summer 2010 I was having that review with the Doctor and as doctors do, he asked what he could do to help, I mentioned both of these things. He started by looking at the list of things I had pulled together, and looked at the list and pulled out a book about aspergers syndrome. It turns out my list of frustrations were all part of a bigger list of possible aspergers traits.
So with that list and the discussion of the results from silly online games, we had quite a discussion! The conclusion was that I am a high function aspie. Aspie is the term used to describe someone who has Aspergers Syndrome.
A rather unexpected turn in the scheme of things, but an eye opener and again, great to be able to understand myself a bit more and realise that so much of my frustration in life is simply the result of not understanding before that my brain is genuinely wired differently from most people. Okay we all work differently, think differently, act differently and behave differently; we are unique just like everybody else!
I’ll write some more later down the line about how it works out in my life, it is an ongoing process I hope to continue to discover as time goes on.